Hi people
I myself have recently been diagnosed as suffering with bipolar disorder. It's the technical name for manic-depression. What this means is that I have, so I am told, a chemical imbalance in my brains ability to release hormones / seretonin, compared to 'normal people'. Personally I think it's more likely to do with the additives they put in water here in the uk but that's my theory. In practice it means I am depressed for most of the time and then have a short period of a few hours of feeling ecstatic, during which time I find my mind and metabolism has accelerated. It is a very creative time for me. Often the peak of this comes at the same time as a full moon, no kidding; it helps to remember that we are approximately 80% water-based creatures and so it seems unsurprising to me that the moon should affect my psychology. I prefer to use my own diagnosis as 'sensitive' than the medical professions austere and vague definitions. All this is besides the point.
I have also had my unfair share of trouble with board moderators. In the last year I have been banned from 2 php forums, and now have discovered there are many others that have been warned against my URL. I can't access a lot of great places and a peer group who would enjoy my company as much as I would theres, from what I can gather of who is around on the forums by posts people are making.
The two forums I have been banned from are both moderated by two friends, neither of whom like me and who have abused their positions so as to bully me. I have seen them do this with other people also. These situations and the way that people react to being set up by corrupt moderation has very little to do with bipolar disorder whatsoever. It's an excuse. Bi-polars and spammers are as different categories as chalk and cheese. Bipolar itself is not responsible for peoples arguments on websites. It's a ridiculous association. Claiming forum users are obviously crazy and banning them for it is a poor tactic often used to discredit those who manipulative powermongers are afraid of.
In the last year I have been banned from 2 sites for pointing out that the moderators are acting out of order and have themselves broken the rules that everyone has agreed to, with the evident agenda to provoke a reaction they can justify banning me for in the eyes of their board's admin. The admin are usually too busy to listen to my complaints and take the moderators word for it, and so seldom listen to both sides of the argument. Not until after I have been insulted, slandered and my access denied, not just from the site in question but from all associated on the network. This has nothing to do with manic-depression, other than reduction in quality of life capable of driving vulnerable people further toward suicide.
I practice Buddhism and believe in live and let live. I also am determined to speak up for 'the little people' who are being pushed around by jealous and spiteful moderators, admin, politicians and so forth. Letting people know what I know about who is around, so that we may all make our own minds up about the energy we are spending with various forums. On this occasion I am not going to announce the names of the mods and admin responsible for bullying, nor their websites, as this is my first post here and first impressions count. Passing peoples URL's around backstage along with lies and twisted versions of the truth is a game that I have been caught up in. What advantage this brings perpetrators is anybodies guess. Truth knows Truth, and the heart weighs according to that which it recognizes itself to be.
As a result I have decided to build my own chat forum and use the software available from the great and kind people here at phpBB/SMF. It seems the only way forward other than to stop using the net altogether, having been bulllied out of town by the local small-minded element who don't agree with freedom of speech. This will be forthcoming and I'll post a link up on this site as and when it's ready.
In the meantime, remember that people being different is what makes life worth living, and the ones who lose their tempers for no good reason are lesser people than they think. Our actions betray our personalities. Stay bright and may the light work through you. Thanks for reading.
Blessed Be
CeltAnkh
PS; 'phpBB' isn't in your spellchecker yet!
